Complex Simplicity

Memories from freshmen year..

Never can I say that I have ever seen
One who could stalk me, in the realm of my dreams.
She with the black, smooth fine hair.
That leaves me in shambles, left only to stare.
Similar, yet unique, like a perfect red rose.
Admired by all, wherever she goes.
Yet finest of all, are her eyes, like bright shining light.
Are beacons of utter amazement, in the dark, dreary night.
I could speak of this perfection, all night and all day.
Yet even now I waste hours away.
So it may be said, of that sweet virtuosa.
The charming, yet beautiful, goddess Marissa

Patrick and I are like best friends now, which is kinda weird considering this is a pretty creepy poem. Lol but yeah he texts me for girl advice and we talk frequently, its so much better than how it started. But this is a memory that i cant forget because 1) its funny as hell. And 2) it reminds me that friendships can start from the most unlikely places. You can never go anywhere and say that there arent at least some friendly people surrounding you. Although im definitely a pessimistic person i still have faith in the unity of mankind. Love is love, whether romantic, familial or friendly, love is love.

Prom is cominggg.. :)

hehe idk why but im really excited :))

1. Jen and Tiff are helping me with my hair/ makeup?… we’ll see about the makeup -_-

2. Then gonna get pictures done at Magic Lab :) heehee. never been, but our pictures are gonna look really really gooddddd :)))

3. Dinner at the cheesecake factory, with Andrew.. lol YAY FOR PASTA DAVINCI :)

4. Drive to the House of Blues in Andrew’s grandma’s Mercedes. awh yeeahh.

lol im so weird. but anyways, it should be alot of fun :) and idk why im excited to get into a dress. but i am. for some reason. I’m kinda ready to make some more high school memories.

you just had a baby, and youre asking for a prom dress thats a 0/2…

either you’re trying to impress the world, or im just fat…

I think its the latter…. :/ ehe.

SIZE 5 FTW :D

It’s 2:14 am..

And i cant sleep. Why you ask? Because, for the first time ever, i cant stop thinking about him… Hes the first one that I can truly say i cant live without

Well it’s been awhile..

So its been awhile since I’ve posted anything.. mostly because everything that made up my life became my ENTIRE life. Everything had a small contribution and now everything fights for my undivided attention everyday. Which i guess is good, keeps me busy.. but I miss having free time without feeling guilty about not studying for AP’s or whatever. It will all be over soon though.

School’s been uber busy. AP’s coming up in a week and I want to shoot all of my teachers for continuing to give me tests, homework and other things to distract me from my overall review of the entire year. Especially the teachers that dont teach my AP classes, Japanese and Sorensen.. My grades look like crap.. which I dont really care about. I have a C in Japanese and a B in Sorensen.. that REALLY pisses me off because they suddenly decided they actually wanted to make me work in those classes. -_- whatever. school is school. every teacher thinks their subject is the most important.

Key Club has been great! I loved DCON, met so many new people and had some great experiences. But ever since I got back everything has pretty much blown up in my face. Not in a bad way, but it’s just made me super busy. I decided that I wanted to apply for distinguished secretary so that I can get recognized at next year’s DCON so I pretty much have to be on time with all my MRF’s and keep a good relation with the LTG, board, and Kiwanis. Not a difficult goal, but one that does require a good amount of energy and attention. However, I think I’m a little more excited about this versus school.

Andrew’s been amazing, really supportive and super sweet. I like everything about him :) People say I wear the pants in our relationship (which I do) lol, kinda but what everyone doesnt see behind the scenes is that we actually talk alot about what we want to do, rather than what I want to do. We have our issues, but we always find a way to work them out in the end. It’s really great having him there for me to cry when I get stressed or frustrated, and to make me laugh when I need to be less serious. He does so much for me, that I tend to ignore. I feel so bad sometimes because I mess with him and, yeah I’m such a bad girlfriend in a way. But somehow he still loves me, and I love him. :) He’s really so much better as far as the ‘clinginess’ goes. We talk about that alot and he understands when I really just want some space. I really think we have a good relationship thats gonna last a long time.

Friends have been awesome, I see Jen like everyday. And we hang out quite a bit. She always keeps me on track and looking in the positive direction, or at least she tries anyways because I’m so stubborn. Havent seen little Joy in awhile, well, I mean hanging out.. We havent hung out in awhile :( which sucks. But I guess school, basketball and boyfriend require alot of prioritizing and discipline. We’ll hang out in the summer. :) Lauren’s been great, hung out at DCON and really rekindled alot of lost memories. Those days in Jr. High were pretty chill i guess. x) As for all of my other friends; were all getting along and though were under a high level of pressure and stress, at least were doing it together.

Well, there’s my life. If anyone reads this, thanks for reading. LOL not that anyone cares about my life in anyway but there it is if you wanna keep up with me. Peace, love and happiness to everyone, and GOOD LUCK WITH AP’s!!! Please at least have the confidence of knowing that you’ll at least do better than me :) hehe.